seeing as its winter and Christmas is approaching, there is in fact snow on the ground now. Piles of it. Like unbelievable amounts of snow. I'm not complaining but I'm not singing praise either. With snow there comes cold and wind and wet. Not fun. I haven't been able to get out to any hills to go boarding in a while. almost like a month and a bit. I'm starting to crave it again. lol. Once i get some money and some time i will head up. there's like a week and a half left till Christmas break and i can't wait. Time is going by so slow and its killing me. I want nothing more than to get out of this shit hole of a school filled with people who i can't stand and i have to plaster on a fake smile for every freakin day of the week. It gets tiring and to be honest I'm kinda exhausted with pretending to be okay everyday. There's things that just constantly break my down no matter how much i try to push them away. The biggest one is the fact that the only person in the world i love this much and want to be with just wont be with me. I've known this person all my life and I've loved them since the day i was born. Always and forever. but he just can't stay with me and i understand that hes a teenager and he feels the need to date mass amounts of girls but i wish he felt the same way bout me. I would choose him over and other guy or a pile of guys any day and i would be extremely happy no matter what but i guess its different with him. I'm not good enough for him to want only me. Anyways you probably don't wanna listen to me rant like a crazy person lol. That gig i mentioned before with the models family friends is still up in the air, i haven't heard much else bout it so we'll see what happens with that. Other than that nm has been going on. pretty boring lol but i will get back to you guys soo, probs tomorrow night or later next week.
ttyl
Madison Kendall